Hoho, so I didnt sleep the whole entire night. Started my morning at around 5.40am. Zil said he was dropping at 5.45, whoa. In the end, I had to frickin rush cos it was the same bus as them and everyone was already there. Oh god, my room is so frickin messy man and I forgot to bring some of my stuffs. Dang. Mega thanks to my friends for helping me out yo. Went to the airport. Tana was also there. Chatted and then after a while, we went in. As always.. Silkair. Man I miss those times when we has chartered flights from GC. one whole plane just for us. Rocking!! Heh. Back then, it was so fun. We could just occupy three seats and sleep on it. Lol, ahhh well. Pandu reminded me so much of an air steward. Hahaha. The flight was four hours or so. Neck was extremely stiff man. Couldnt sleep much. When we finally reached, we met the whole gang outside the airport. Rempit. The sight was awesome. I went off with dad. Dropped my luggage at home and went to tuliama house for lunch. Everyone was there. Met bro otw too and we went there. I was dreading to see everyone in a gathering cos I knew they'll spend an hour talking about me, most cos of my size. then they'll laugh at what I'm saying cos my Nepali is horrendous and they can't understand it. Then they'll start talking in the Gurung language. All three that I mentioned did happen. Dang. Lol. Went home with bro. Ate doughnut, yummeh. Nepal cakes kinda suck but doughnuts... Yumm...
Slept a while after that and then woke up to unpack my luggage. I kinda regret not bringing more but oh well....
Fricking freezing yo. Everyone is like saying it's the perfect temperature and here I am, freezing. Dad says it prolly cos they're already used to it. He said winter was worse. Whoaaaa.
Ok lah, I better sleep quickly. I need to go Chitwan today to make my nagrita. Let's hope all goes well.
Goodnight!

Ahhh yesterday was so hectic. Woke up at 2.30pm. Started to pack my stuffs here and there. Went out with Jana to Nex mall. Shopped for all those things i had yet to buy and some clothes. Super super hectic. It was already 9pm. Omg so many things to carry, i swear i was carrying about 10kg all the way. So heavy man. Hands were trembling at the end. Rushed to kamala's house after that. She invited all of us for dinner. Hehehe. Straight to food and omg yummmmehhhhh.

Ate a lot! Tasty food after ages! Chatted there with everyone. At midnight, cut the cake. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAMALA!! Hahah, stay lovely! Went home after that. The others came alone with me to help out.. tho... it wasn't much. Hahahah but hey, thanks for the moral support! Heheheh. The room was getting so stuffy and i was getting sleepy too. So Dipa, Nita and Alena went to Nita's house above while Renu and Jana is currently lying on my bed. Oh god how much i'm yearning for that bed. To just lie down there and close my eyes. Dangggg. So sleepy to the max. It's 5.35am.

I should prolly start getting ready. Zil and Pandu's also going to Nepal with me! Zil says he's dropping at 5.45am. Shock attack. Here i am, dressed in my home clothes, blogging away and my things are still not ready. Oh well. I'm dropping at 6.30am.

Ok goodnight! Hope all goes well for the seven days i'm there.

Just watched the moon that embraces the sun. EPIC. Finalllllllly!

Woohoohoo. Eggcited.

Omg anyway flying off next day, still haven't packed. Shall do it later when i wake up.. super sleepy to the maxz man. Gonna KO soon. Ok. Need to go shopping again.

Goodnight!

Extremely sleepy to the maxz. Went for IELTS test today. The listening was pretty okay.. so was the reading. The writing was WTF?!!!!!!! So screwed up on that. Don't think i'll even get 6 for that. Sheez been ages since i wrote a "compo". Omg. Mind just went blank. They also asked us to compare a chart they gave us and write a report on it. More wtf. Felt like i was dealing with maths question. Damn it. Had break after that. Speaking test was much later in the afternoon. Not so sure about that man. She asked a LOT of questions and it's like she went from cars to birthdays to tourism to my first trip to internet. GG. I think i stuttered and at some point, i was like wth am i saying?! Lol. Oh well anyway it's over. Ohmygod please please please let me pass that. Sheeez man don't want my 310 bucks to waste. Sighs.

Anyway shopped after that. Bought bro's jeans. Oh god, money fly again. Money has been flying a lot these days. Ufff. Came home and cleaned my room. Feeling clean right now. Hehe. Skyping with parents but the internet there's like shit.

Anyway oh god i'm so frickin sleepy at the moment.

I can't believe i'm flying off the day after tomorrow. Haven't even packed or finished my shopping! Dang. So many things to do, so little time.

Argh for now, feeling dead tired.

Sighs..

Having a bloody stomach ache right now. Can't sleep man. Argh.

Damn it. Anyway prays well for IELTS.

Goodnight.

School life in Singapore finally over. 17 years of education. Feels good but at the same time... damn, i think being a student is one of the best things ever. So gonna miss it man. Went back to school for one last time. Hoho, 3 years in it, shall miss it. Lol during the whole time, i was actually missing ward instead. Felt weird to be sitting the lecture hall and not attending to patients in the ward. Hehe. Went to watch This means war with Dipa, Nita and Kamala. Haha cool movie, pretty okay. Shopped after that, money fly. Went home and read the newpaper. Had to go for some dinner party. Zzzz so sleepy man. Maybe i shall sleep for a while and wake up later cos i can't tahan. But omggggg IELTS tomorrow in the morning man and i have done literally NOTHING about it. Argh. It's like.... crap! Jeni, it's an English exam!! Still not sink in yet. I paid 310 bucks for it, i need to pass it man! Dang. Anyway crap.. i'm really really falling asleep. Shall take a nap. Waiting for the moon that embraces the sun to be subbed. Still haven't started packing my luggage-___-

Sighs. So little time.

IT'S OVER. Last day in the ward! Ohmygod. Woohoohoo~

Took six cases, it was hectic in the morning. Oh god. After a while, it was okay.

We gave pizzas to the ward as a thank you gift. Lol. Spent our time in the pantry, eating and taking pictures. Hehehe. Omg i'm really really gonna miss working there man. It doesn't even feel real. Like i can't believe i'm not going back to the ward, oh wait, to that hospital, anymore. Like no more. Hohoho but at the same time, i feel so sad. 3 years spent there. Hoh, i'm gonna miss it.

Anyway met up with Kamala and went FEP to perm my hair. You know what.... Hair Sense was closed. Fml. So i went to Klearcut. Which was pretty ok. Dude was pretty good. Le happy to see straight hair no more. Woohoo. But on the other hand, fml, 230 bucks bye.

Was so shagged, reached home at 10pm. Extremely tired right now, about to KO any moment really. I don't even feel like sleeping now and waking up later to play the laptop again. Just feel like sleeping till i wake up for school. Sighs. Skyped with family. Long list of things to shop for and to do, so little time. Damn. Today will be spent in school and then home to study for IELTS. Fml, have not even started studying for it. Idk even know what the test consists of. Sighs. And then tomorrow, it's IELTS, whole day spent there. After that, i'll only be left with the 26th.

One fricking day to do everything. Damn it. I have not even started packing or done anything at all. Suit case has been in that corner since i came back. Lol. Anyway heard Zil and Pandu will be going to Nepal on the 27th too, looks like i have company during the flight. Yay, thought i'll be the only GC person. Awesome.

Really happy PRCP's over but on the other hand, i feel so sad knowing my school life in Singapore is over. Like damn... that just indicated time for me to leave this country. Sighs.

Goodnight.

IT IS FINALLY THE LAST DAY IN THE WARD. HELL YEAH.

3 months finally coming to an end. Woohoohoo.

Yesterday, we pretty much stayed in the hall and the ADN talked with us.. we finished around 12pm. We were supposed to go to the ward but we decided to just sit around in Kopitiam and relax. Went back around 1.30pm. Did nothing. Just sent and fetched patient from Renal Unit. Took pictures with the staff also. Ahh gonna miss working there. Ended at 4pm.

Went to the bank to activate my ATM card. I must be mad stupid, i nearly told my pin number to the lady-___- She was the one who had to tell me, "don't tell me". Oh god faints.

We roamed around to buy a gift for our preceptor. Lol i kinda feel beyzard right now to give it to her. Hahaha. Changed clothes and went Anita's sister house to have a surprise birthday party for her. We all hid and when she came through the door, boom! Hahaha daebak.

So Happy Birthday Anita!

Ate so much. Felt so sleepy and tired man. When i reached home, i completely KO-ed and woke up at 2.45am. Bathed and here i am. Crap. It's 4.30am. I need to wake up at 5.25am.

One more morning shift and that's it yo. Shall perm my hair today hopefully.

Hohoho, goodnight.

Omg i forgot, Big Bang's Blue MV is out. Hell yeah, they're back! Woohoo!

Love the song. Something different. Awesome.

Can't wait for what they have to bring. Daebak.

On another hand, happy birthday Anita!

Ahhhh damn it. PM shift was so so so so fricking busy.

Argggh. Two new admissions at the same time, hate empty beds!

Two patients back from wherever they had to go for. Sheeez.

I was getting so arggh because there were so many changes and on top of that, the call bell was sounding away. Independent patients ftw. And crap, i forgot to do two stuffs. Sighs.

Anyway finally. Two more days in hospital and it's over. Today, de-brief from 8-4pm.

Then one more morning shift in the ward tomorrow and my life in TTSH is officially over. Hell yeah! Can't wait. Though... i think i'll miss working here cos i'm already so used to it. Plus TTSH is like kinda high tech, everything's pretty easy to do. Dang. Hope hospitals in the US are like that.

Anyway reached home at midnight, had a long chat with my friends. Ahh dang, gonna miss these little moments. Sighsss.

Skyped with dad and bro. Had a long long longggggggg conversation with bro. Haha swear we can go on talking for ages. Heh.

Anyway it's 3.15am, damn. I need to bathe quickly. Need to wake up at 6.25am.

Goodnight.

In the end, i came back online.

Decided to check out hair salons.. Lol.

Hair Sense it is..

Monday morning wasn't as hectic as before! Thank God for that. There were changes but thank God, it was pretty okay. Usually i realise it's when the Dr's handwriting sucks, the changes are hard to read and half the time will be spent on trying to figure out what they wrote. Thank god this time, everything was readable. Lol. Anyway two more days. Oh yeah.

Went out with Jana and Nancy. Think i shall perm. my hair at Hair Sense... see how it goes. Bought an umbrella finally from Esprit. Need to do shopping.

Went home and KO-ed all the way till 2am.

It's 2.22am, fck. I am going off now. Really really need to BO badly, i'm shivering.

PM shift later, oh yeah.

Goodnight!

Been having throbbing headaches these days. Damn. Pretty sure it's because of the sleep. But idk man, it's like on and off, that headache. During the start of my shift when the morning staff was passing report, swear i was having a bloody headache as tho a hammer was hitting my head repeatedly. Argh. After a while, it was okay but then at some point, it came back again. Sighs.

Paracetamol it is..

Anyway ahhh i love work on the weekends! Hehehe. Much more.... ahem.

Took two cubicles but there were only ten patients of which, one went for dialysis, the one got transferred. So...it was awesome! But pretty sure the empty beds are gonna be filled in the morning. Ohmygod, just got reminded, noooooooooooo it's Monday morning today! DAMN IT!

Oh god please please please let it be peaceful. Oh god, i can just foresee the number of changes. Sighs. Alright. Anyway i've been searching on hair perms cos imma perm my hair! I'm sick of the straight hair... don't know why i did it in the first place. Bloody impulse. Sighs. Dad agreed to let me use his card, yay. Need to confirm my tickets soon and then only, i'll feel like i'm really going to Nepal. Omo! 1 week away! Wait. F F F. IELTs. Shit. So gonna screw that up. Sighs.

On another hand, three working days left. Oh yeah.

BANZAI! Goodnight.

Lol. I searched on the internet and it says that too much sleep is more unhealthy than not getting enough sleep. Ahhh damn it. I think i've been getting too much sleep. Anyway sheeez, i couldn't sleep last night so i was awake all the way till 8am. I just couldn't sleep so i went all the way to Joo Seng and then my kaka's house to collect my mail. O.O Just got my Go! Posb mastercard. Online shopping, here i come. Read newpaper and slept around 11am. As a result, i woke up at 6.30pm-_-

So much for buying milk to bake a cake. Aiiish. When i woke up, i went Joo Seng with Jana. We went there just to eat-__- Oh God. Bless us.

Skyped with my family and yep, this time, it's confirmed for real. I am going Nepal indeed.

And after that, flying to NYC. Shit man, it's kinda making me nervous now.

IELTS is next Saturday and i've done nothing to prepare for it.

Damn it.

On another note, OMG ITS FRICKIN WEEK TWELVE!

One last week and that's it. End of my nursing school life at NYP! And then road to a Staff Nurse!

Hohoho. PM shift later, hope all goes well.

Goodnight!

It's 6.35am. Hearing the temple bells ring. Lol after ages!

Been looking at recipes. Craving so badly for cakes. Or just something sweet but cakes would be good. Omg and since i don't have a cake right now, i'm looking at people baking and eating cakes.

Which is kinda...fml. But argh! Definitely have to bake one today if i wake up. But i'm feeling kinda er.... to bake one in phupu's kitchen. Ahhhh damn it.

On another note, i need to start exercising. Seriously.

Ok fml what exactly do i want? I want to eat cakes and then exercise?

Hais. Ok goodnight!

Having a headache right now.

Finally day off! Yesterday was pretty chillax. Touch wood for that.

I was finding stuffs to do. Hope everyday's like this. Wait. No, not really.

Came home and KO-ed all the way till 1am. So frickin tired. Legs aching to the maxz.

Anyway omg. Week frickin TWELVE soon!

Finally!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shall sleep the whole day. Goodnight.

Argh morning shifts are always SIGHS. Overflow of Neuro cases in my cubicle, dammmn.

Pathways different. Traumatized in the morning man. One of my neuro patients started to kinda like have "fits". Oh em gee. I swear i was like fckkkkkkkkk. SN asked me to take the vitals and then suddenly she was non-responsive. Omg and the worst part, NIC wanted to call the doctor but the Drs never write their name in the case notes so she was like calling all the doctors one by one and they said it's not their case. Brother came and asked me to do hypocount, my hand were literally trembling that when i did it, the blood was not exactly in place. Lol. The doctor finally came but... 10 minutes later, the patient was perfectly fine. I was like whaaaaat just happened?! Dr said it's not fits. Sheeez. The patient was fine man, she asked me to get her pants and a phone..

Dang but anyway i was traumatized because half of the time, i had thoughts from a horror scene.

Fml.

Anyway oh God, was half way reaching home soon and it started raining heavily to the maxz. Completely drenched man. Argh right before the rain when i was walking home, i was like oh god why can't it rain? Zzzzzzzzz. Sighs.

KO-ed after that, momo for dinner. Hehe.

One morning shift today and then DO finally.

Goodnight.

Day in the ward was pretty okay at first. It started getting FFFFFFFFfff towards the end.

The patient was complaining of pain. She wanted panadol but there wasn't any panadol keyed in for her. We had just given her tramadol an hour ago. The husband said they only gave her the tramadol but no panadol. I told him tramadol is a stronger painkiller than panadol but he was like, if it's stronger then you look at her, she's still having pain. I was like argh, she only took it like an hour ago! It's not magic, not gonna be instant. Anyway i told him that if tramadol didn't work for her so there's no way panadol will work for her also cos panadol is for mild pain and that was why Dr had ordered pethidine for her also. I asked if she wanted pethidine. The husband said pethidine injection will also be painful, she's already in pain then got injection. Told him pethidine is the strongest painkiller and Dr has ordered that for her and after the injection, the pain will subside. Oh god, die die want to have panadol. I told them Dr didn't order panadol for her and it's not gonna work anyway, still want panadol. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. So i asked the Dr to key in panadol and told the husband now we have to wait for the Dr to key in panadol and that will take time so for now, she will have to tolerate with it cos i can't give the meds unless the Dr has ordered it. Chicken neh neh machicken. The patient threw the callbell and started swearing. Cbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb. "cheebye, sial. Go home lah. Puki. Cheebye."

I was like fck. Fck. Fck. Walked out of there. Omg so irritating to the maxz man.

You complain of pain. I want to give you the pain meds and you refuse. Then like that, i can do nothing what! I've already tried my best. If you want the paint to subside, you have to take the painkiller. Irritating man. The doctor then came and talk to them and wtf, they agreed to the pethidine finally. After that, the doctor left and my SN was right about to give the pethidine. She even broke the ampule and was about to administer and then the patient refused.

WHAT THE HELL. Plus pethidine is a controlled drug leh.

What what what what what what what do you want?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you're going to complain of pain then you jolly well just accept the painkiller if not, STOP complaining to us about it. Because frankly speaking, we can do nothing about your pain. It's only the meds that's gonna help. Walau. Sighs.

I shall head back to my home sweet Team 2 today.

Anyway after the shift ended, went to Renu's house. We had our dinner there. Momo!!!!!

Thanks Pun! We chatted till 2am. Crap man i'm morning shift later. It's 3.16am. So screwed.

Need to bathe and sleep quickly. Prolly getting one hour of sleep. Sighs. It's a morning!

Please please please let it be ok.

Goodnight.

Prays for better days.

It's Valentine's day and everyone's on about it on Facebook.

Haiyoh.

Anyway i'll be enjoying my day with my patients. Ahahaha, please in the joy of Valentine's day, please let it be peaceful.

Goodnight.

Anyway all my crazy thoughts aside, back to ward yesterday. Went to Team 1. It was pretty okay except i was in a daze man. I forgot my patients' diagnosis, told the Dr about the wrong patient and i kept stoning. Lol. Dang. Felt so sleepy. Sighs. But the day was actually pretty good lah. Nothing that pissed me off except for a few rude people. Hahaha oh god i just love nurses who are very frank with people, it's funny. Anyway this funny doctor came up to us and asked whether there's a queue number for beds booked at CDC. Hahahhahahaha queue number? What on Earth....

Still lol-ing over it. But he's one of the nicer doctors around. Heh. Hilarious.

Anyway woohoohoo i only have six days left in the ward. Ok lah seven if i count the 23rd of February too. I don't understand why they made our schedule like that. Our debrief in TTSH is on the 22nd which kinda equals to the end of PRCP in TTSH isn't it? But we have to return to the ward again on the 23rd like any normal day, i happen to be AM shift on that day. Kinda huh?! Might as well have put debrief on the 23rd man.. it'll be so weird to be back to the ward after debrief and work as usual. Then finally on the 24th, debrief at NYP, the end of PRCP, the end of Year 3, the beginning to becoming a RN. Heh.

Can't wait!!!!!!!

On the other hand, omg.... time is getting so short.

Oh no.

I have no idea why but oh my god i'm going crazy.

There's just so many things going through my head and i feel like running all the way, head down to that swimming pool right below my house and jump into it. And then i feel like swimming 5 laps, jump around in the pool, dive, do butterfly jumps and come back home to bathe.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.

PSY case or what.

His default face, hahahha.
Woke up at 9.30pm. Swept and mopped my room. Washed my uniforms. Changed my bedsheets.

Feeling good. Need to sweep one more time.

Watched Wild romance. Daebak chincha daebak!

Director Kim ftw. Hohoho. He's got the charm!

Hehe, PM shift later. Prays everything goes well.. it's Monday.

Dammmmn. Anyway getting eggcited yet anxious at the same time.

Hoohoohoo~

Goodnight!

Great, like i needed another reason to migrate to Korea.

I mean seriously?!!!! WTF?!

Fastest internet in the world?! That's enough to make me want to live there.

And omg that for 10 bucks per month? Fck.

I'm paying over 20 bucks for this crappy internet which has it's peak and off peak periods.

Currently my internet speed is like 245 kbps.

Average Korea internet speed: 13.8 Mbps.

Fck. I'm not even 1 Mbps, they're 13 yo!!!

Damn. Someone get me a ticket to Korea, thanks.

Sheeez really really having a lack of sleep. For like past 30+ hours, only have had 5 hours of sleep.

Lol pretty sure i'm gonna be sleeping the whole entire day today. Need to clean my room and wash my uniforms though. Omg WEEK 11 tomorrow.

HOLYMOLY. 12 weeks ending sooooooooooon! Can count the days with my hands now. Omo!

Eggcited please let these two weeks be peaceful. Omg on the other hand, IELTS test soon and i know nuts about it. SIGHS.

Still arggh over me not able to donate blood yesterday. Sighs.

Anyway hope everything goes well. I'm in a dilemma right now.

I'm like wondering whether to lose weight or not.

I wanna lose atleast a lil weight before i leave Singapore but at the same time when i think of it, like whaaaat?! My last days in Singapore spent on losing weight? Siao right? I mean one can always lose weight. Last days in Singapore should be spent eating all the food that i can only have here and going everywhere, not lose weight!

But then again when i think about it, waaaah too fat man.

Lol so what shall i do?

Anyway whatever it is, i'm only THINKING.

Even though i'm thinking of losing weight, hah, i doubt i will anyway-____-

All thoughts, no action.

Okay goodnight!

Night shift was pretty okay, thank god for that. Nothing hectic, just the usual things. Took 12 cases, asa! Wah omg i had chicken rice for dinner at night and then subway during my break. After that, i checked my hypocount, it was only 4.8. Shocked maximum. Another staff of mine who didn't eat anything had 5.8. Lol but different people... Anyway the first time in my life, we finished passing report at 7.30am on the dot. After that, i had breakfast at Kopitiam, watched The moon that embraces the sun ep 11. I literally sat there all the way till 9.30am and then i headed my way to Outram.

Met Jana and we went donate our blood. Doctor asked me if i wanna reconsider coming tomorrow cos i'll prolly be dead tired after night shift and so on. Told him, i'll just go ahead with the donation.

AND............ i got rejected for the fourth time. CBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB.

My bloody Hb was only 10.5, worse than my previous one. Walau.

I geared myself so much for this donation since weeks ago. Ate bananas, drank a lot of water and so on. Haiyah. Zzzzzzz man. Everything also low with mine.

Now if only my weight was as low. Dammittttttt.

After Jana finished her donation, we went Just Acia for lunch and then we roamed around.

Reached home at frickin 4pm, nearly died i swear. I could have just finished my morning shift.

Slept at 5pm, woke up at 9pm. Not feeling good man. Like i'm having indigestion.

That nauseous feeling. Argh prolly lack of sleep. I mean i just stayed up for almost 24 hours.

Sighsssssss.

Waiting for ep 12 to be loaded. Shall watch that drama and KO again.

Night was pretty okay. Felt so sleepy. One of my patient passed away. Felt so bad man. I feel like i could have done more to help him or be more comfortable. Dang.. he always used to say sorry and thank you. SIGHS.

Anyway.. planned to donate blood today but i'm feeling extremely sleepy man. Plus one more night later, i doubt i'll make it through tho i think i'll be rejected for blood donation anyway. Have a feeling i'll have low Hb. Always having giddy spells. Hmm but let's see.

Shall donate tomorrow cos i'm off.

I came and i switched on my laptop to watch The moon that embraces the sun. I frickin gave up my sleep leh, like drama before it. And.... it's not sub yet. Arghhhhhhhhhhh.

Guess i better sleep fast then. Good...morning.

I did nothing the whole day, slept. Woke up at 7.30pm. Sighs.

Had a shock when i saw Jana's tweet. Blood bank's seriously having a shortage of blood and apparently, today, a doctor called for one pine of blood and got refused and they said if only the patient is critical and dying then they'll give. Whoa. Heard the patient had a Hb of 7.6. Whoa.

Come on people, let's donate blood. Shall donate tomorrow and hopefully it'll be a success lah cos i'll always get rejected. Dang.

Night shift later, dammit, i'll most probably get sent to Team 1 cos i just found out Joseph's also night shift and he'll be taking the male side.. Dang. Please let it be a peaceful night. It's also been AGES since i took Team 1.. dang.

Ok goodnight!

Hard choices and sacrifices do not keep you warm at night. Life’s too damn short and too damn long to go through it without someone at your side. Fight for love.
— The Three Musketeers~

I saw this on Moon's facebook status.

O.O Makes me think from another perspective.

Bloody bloody busy day yesterday. Omg. F man F. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Transfer, three new admissions at the same time. Relatives asking one thousand questions. Doctors who still don't do anything after informing them. Arghhh.

I went break at 7.45pm man, 7.45pm, wtf. And i had to return by 8pm to transfer. My poor SN didn't even go for break. Too damn busy.

Omg. And most of the time, it was relatives. Fck.

We updated the relatives frickin four times about the same patient and about the same thing.

Everyone came at different times and all wanted an update. It's very irritating you know. Who's the spokesperson yo?! We can't update every single time to each new family member who comes in man, it's too busy here. Another one who wants an update about CTAP, updated them and they still wanted the Doctor himself to update him but it's already past 6pm yo! The team doctors are already not on call! The relative was starting to be pissed so I called the passive doctor and omg, he told me he's not the right person to update the family cos he's not the primary doctor. What?!! If we don't call the passive then who to call man?! Plus he has to r/v the post CTAP anyway so might as well just spend 5 min seeing and then just telling them about it.

Argh. My NIC was like wtf, next time tell him, "oh you're not going to update ah, ok lo.. we'll ask your MO". Lol. In the end, the son was pissed and he said if we upgraded him to B1 or A class ward, maybe the doctor would be here and so on. Da fug?

Sorry sir, all patients are the same. It's still gonna be the same doctor with the same mindset, still gonna be the same meds and the same treatment plan.

Omg why why why? Sighs.

Thank god i'm off today. Reached home around 11pm, KO-ed after that. Woke up at 2.30am, bathed and continued with drama.

6.45am. I am so hungry man. The only meal i had was the meal i had during my break which i had to shove all the food in. Sighs. At times like this, omg craving for pizza and kfc chicken.

Fast food. Lol. Ok i better sleep.

Please let all the troubles go away. Hope for better days ahead!

Goodnight!

My sleeping lifestyle is so screwed up. I woke up from my nap at 3am, bathed and then watched a drama. It's 5.45am right now. Thank god for PM shift.

One more shift and then day off tomorrow. Asa!

Goodnight.

Extremely hot day. I sweated a lot man. Screw the heat. I don't know why though, when i was in the ward, i felt cold too. Like the shivers you get.. Lol don't tell me it's something supernatural. One of my patient passed away. The day was pretty argh. The thing that kept me super busy was annoying relatives who did not leave us alone. Omg. What is the point of wearing that "medication round, do not disturb" vest when they're still gonna disturb us. Ohmygod can people read or not?

Sheez man, i'm like serving meds to one patient and then another patient from another bed calls me. And for what? To give a new set of bajus. Will wearing that baju for just ten minutes kill you? Serving meds is more important please, thanks for your understanding. I had a relative who told me his mom's having phlegm like frickin seven times. No kidding. He even showed the phlegm to us. YES WE GET IT, WE KNOW. We've already informed the doctor, WAIT WAIT WAIT.

Omg wae wae wae people so impatient? Uff there's like 14 patients le, can't do everything at the same time. Sighs. Finished everything only around 10pm. Omg Sister came to us and and asked me if i want to do PM shift tomorrow, i was like YESSSSSSSSSSSSS please! Woohoohoo so i'm PM today. Mad happy. Sleep is vital.

Reached home around 11pm. Got a shock of my life. Awkward moment please. Fml.

I have no idea what to do. Sighs. Anyway, i'm feeling damn damn damn hungry.

I'm like burping gas.. sighs.

Sleepy, maybe i'll take a nap.

Did nothing productive except to wash my shoes and uniforms.

Argh, why can't washing machines make our uniforms white like as tho we hand washed it. Sighs. I mean it does make it clean but i prefer hand washing my uniforms.. whiter. Hehe.

So hungry right now. Woke up at 7pm, had dinner and nothing else. When did i start getting so bloody lazy man? Hmmm... i think it's ever since my parents went Nepal. I used to go jogging everyday back then, sighs. Omg i did skipping today for 100 times and i nearly died. Seriously. Lol no kidding, i felt like i was going into a cardiac arrest. Sheeez i think i better start going for jogs man. Back then i could do 1500, that too after jogging and now with just 100, i felt like dying. Fml.

Can't go on like this man. Tsk, i know i'm saying all this right now but i have a feeling i'll still be spending my off days sleeping like a log. Lol let's see. Heh.

Oh god i'm sure about my future man. Sighs, what shall i do, hmmm...

When i go NY and if i have to start a 4 years degree all over again, shall i still continue nursing or shall i try another degree? Yeah i know many will say my 3 years of nursing diploma will be of waste but no, i think nursing is like for life long. The knowledge i got from it is definitely still going to be of use in my daily life or anywhere. Hmmmm.. haiyah i talk so much and in the end, i'll most prolly still go back to nursing cos although it can suck a lot at times... i enjoy it.

Heh, okay! Afternoon shift later. Thank god i'm not morning man. It's Monday yo!! The worst of all days in a week. Heh hope the day goes well.

Goodnight.

Feeling so bloody nauseous and i'm having a sore throat. Argh.

I keep thinking about my future. I think i'll be lonely without my friends. Sighssssss.

Hope all goes well.

Day off today, asa! Goodnight.

Day was pretty busy, ah as usual, mornings.

Changes, discharges, admissions. Aiiish and to think i was hoping for a more relaxed day cos it was Saturday. KO-ed the moment i reached home.

Just had a long long conversation with my family.

DAD ASKED ME TO COME NEPAL ON THE 27TH TO MAKE NAKGRITA! OMO!

Woooohooooooooooooooooooooo. But the time is extremely near man, crap.

My time in SG is also super short. After i make my nakgrita in Nepal, i'll come back to SG on the March 5 with my parents and then head to New York on the 11th or so. Dammmmmn.

Screw the nakgrita thingy, it's some type of Nepal IC. I should have made it when i went last September but then again, omo it gave me an excuse to go Nepal!

But then again if i go there, my time in SG is really really short and i can't go for my class chalet. It's like my last time in Singapore man... feel like crying at the thought of it. Twenty years in this country, the memories... damn but one day, i have to leave it right?

On another note, money's all gonna fly on airfares now. Damn.

Arghhh. It's like Nepal or Singapore? I want to go Nepal and meet my grandparents and my brother but at the same time, Singapore man... this is where i was born and raised, almost like my home country which holds more memories than Nepal or any place on Earth.

Sighs. This feeling sucks. I think if i could, i prolly wanna stay in Singapore man. SIGHS.

Okay forget it..

OMG PRCP. Getting shit scared about it. Three weeks left, please let everything turn out alright. Omg. Something kinda gave me a shocker yesterday. Damn.

Ok shall watch some other dramas, finished ep 10, daebak!

Extremely sleepy to the maxz. Day in the ward was pretty okay. If only everyday's like that man. Sighs. Super tired. But i managed to get my ass up and watch ep 9. Hehehe. Awesome.

AM shift today and then rest day. Ahhh come on, one more morning Jeni and then sleep all you want! Sighs.

Goodnight.

Back to ward and Jana scared me for an instant when she said Team 2's pretty heavy. I was like noooooooooo, i went to ward praying that it'll be empty yo!

But omg thank God, FIRST time ever, there were 2 SN, 1 AN and me so one SN took one whole cubicle while i took the other one and the other SN just took charge of everything in general. So... it was pretty okay. Touch wood. In the end, two of my patients discharged and one was transferred out so i was left with four. Hehehe le likes!

Hope the day goes well. Been waiting and waiting for the next episode, not out yet, dammit.

I also got my roster for the next week, oooh night shift on the 9 and 10th!

Hehe goodnight!

Yesterday, irritating Dipa kept calling me to bake a cake.

So i had to wake up at 4.30pm and bake a cake. Didn't turn out well cos i used too many bananas. Damn it. So they crashed my room. Cake and coke, awesome.. Fatty life man. They started using my laptop so i fell asleep. Woke up around 7.30pm or so. They went home finally. Hehehe.

Started to watch Wild romance cos i really need something to keep me busy while waiting for The moon that embraces the sun. Anyway today, i realized that it's FEBRUARY!

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

IT'S FEBRUARY YO! Like finally february. Hehehheheehe and when does PRCP end??

February 24 BUT the last day will be at school and on february 23, it'll be half day of de-briefing so.... in other wards, our last official day in the ward will be on the 22nd! Omo. Today's already the 2nd of feb. HOOHOOHOO~

I swear just the thought of it makes my heart feel like bursting seriously. So mad happy man.

Even now as i'm typing this, i'm giggling to myself. Hehehehe.

Oh wait. Oh.

Fck. I just realised that also means... my time in SG is coming to an end. Walau.

I am seriously not sure about my future man. What shall i do. Manoj told me our nursing license won't be recognized in US so we'll have to start all over again there. It's frickin four years man!! Although the aftermath will be awesome cos nursing is very high paid there but wtf man, four years of Nursing all over again?! Sheeeeeeeez. Ok i don't really mind that but f man by the time i graduate and start working, i'll be like 24? I always wanted to have a degree before 22. Sighs and also, he says Nursing is extremely competitive there and you need to have a GPA of 3.7. FML.

Damn man... seriously not sure about my life. On the other hand if it was Aussie, life would have been so much easier without any complications.

What shall i do?

Sighs, okay anyway before i even start thinking about my future or anything, gotta focus on my present. Hope the day goes well and things will be better. Please let it be empty.

goodnight.

Se7en is so gorgeous. He has a beautiful girlfriend, Park Han Byul.

They have been together for like 10 years.

And that makes Se7en even gorgeous!!

Sometimes the world is sucha nice place to live in with all these good looking people to look at.

Though the saddest part is that they're unreachable.

Hahaha.

Argh crap. Fell asleep while waiting for the videos to load.

This time i better wake up to bake a cake.

Goodnight.